Lynn Ferrier

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I came. I saw. I made it awkward.

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the day i died

i think it was a tuesday. or maybe a thursday. the days had stopped meaning much to me by then. they were all the same shade of grey, one long, en...

Proper Kubernetes Monitoring

Building Observability That Actually Helps

Kubernetes is very good at hiding problems. A pod can be Running while the application inside it is completely broken. A node can be Ready while i...

The People Who Knew

What happens when the people closest to you see the fall and choose not to reach for you

Content Warning: The following post discusses addiction, mental health struggles, family relationships, and emotional neglect. Please take care ...

When Life Stops Making Sense

There is a question that is difficult to ask without making the room feel a little quieter: What if I don’t want to be alive anymore? It is a que...

At the Borderline

Some days do not begin. They arrive like a verdict. The body wakes up first, but the mind is already somewhere else — already split between dread,...

On Being Held

i hope you meet someone who doesn’t ask you to be fine. someone who knows grief doesn’t disappear just because you’ve gotten tired of carrying it. ...

Working on Existing Systems

Things I've seen while freelancing on infrastructure

Freelancing in infrastructure means you don’t build clean systems—you inherit them. Usually at the exact moment they’ve become too fragile, too con...

About Me

Chaos enthusiast and sysadmin passionate about technology and creating intentional, calm spaces.

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